five.

i hope this week stays as good as today.
because Mike was really amazing.
he had 24 hour duty last night and Ryder and i went to see him on his chow break, and brought him some snackies. as we were leaving, he kisses me, tells me he loves me, and tells me that i'm a good wife. it felt really good to hear that. it made me realize that he was listening when i talked to him the night before.
Ry and i walked to the truck smiling.
i actually missed him last night. here i am, not really feeling anything all Deployment because there isn't anything i can do to change it, and i miss him on 24 hour duty.
i tried sleeping with Ry in my bed and i realized, it's impossible to sleep with this child anymore! i was punched, kicked, jabbed, and in the end, when i finally gave up and put him back in bed, his head was down by my feet, when it was next to my face when we started, lol.
Mike got home when Ryder was waking up, and fed him a bottle and played with him, then went and brought home breakfast. i let him sleep for a little while, knowing he hadn't had any, while Ryder and i played downstairs.
i woke him up because we had things to do. we had to go get Ryders WIC food. i had asked him to do this 2 weeks ago, but then we misplaced the checks. i found them, but today, i couldn't find the folder. i was so irritated. i try my hardest to stay organized but when i have loads and loads of things built up that i need to do, it just, dies. so after checking the house and the car, which the baby was already in, i told Mike to forget it, and went inside. i told him, in a calm manor, that this is why i needed help around here, because i was losing my mind and everything important.
well, we finally found it, after asking Ryder, who was no help but he was the one that had it last, like so many other things, haha. and we were on our way.
i made sure to lose the attitude, because we had found it, and were getting what we needed done.
when we got home, he started doing the things i have been asking him to do. cleaning the dog poo, fixing all the bricks in the back so we could let the puppies out longer, instead of them having accidents in the house, and cleaning out their kennels since, they're not all the way potty trained yet. i went upstairs and rocked Ry to sleep for his nap and read a little in my book. i went downstairs to he wonderful smell of bleach, since he knows i like a good smelling house. and i had asked him to mop or swiffer all last week. we heard the baby wake up and he grabbed the bleach water bucket and went outside and dumped it down the hill. he learned from his last mistake. while i fed Ryder hims dinner, Mike left to get me the subway i had said that i wanted, and bottled water. while i ate, he gave Ryder his bath, and then made himself something, while playing with him. he put him to bed too. he took out the trash like i asked, and put the dogs to bed. we went upstairs and he gave me some lovin. all in all, it was a good day and i hope that we can keep having a good week.

monday, we finally get to see Bean.
and next weekend is my birthday. i will be turning 23. in many ways, that number has changed and saved my life. so, i hope it brings me lots of luck this year. <3

my little boy is no little boy anymore. today, he stood up in his pack n play. he always wants to jump. he bent his knees, and stood back up and help it for a few seconds. i squealed a little. then after bath, Mike said he stood up for a good 30 seconds. and after bath, he stood up for a few more. mommys big boy is getting more and more brave. now, he just needs to learn to take a step. he no longer just, falls. he gets scared standing so he slowly bends now to get on all fours. he's adorable! and i see a few pairs of new cute baby shoes in the near future for mommys little walker! gosh, he is so handsome, and so perfect. he's the best thing ever given to me. and though i know i will miss the ribbons, tutus, and bows, i would be okay with such another perfect little lover boy in my life. i love you bubbaloo, so, so very much! :D