forty four.

i can no longer feel bad.
about losing a friendship with Lindsay.
today, Mike and Travis were talking about how weird Parsons was. we got to talking about i told them that supposedly, Nick was suppose to propose to Lindsay when she came down next weekend. Travis let me know, that he has never heard of her before. that Nick never says anything about her, but he did take another girl on his motorcycle up in the mountains, and was flirting with the new boot often. i kind of did a double take. this wasn't just Mike talking now, this was a complete outside source. i really had to sit and think about it, but i knew that if i didn't say something to her, i would have a heavy heart. that i would want someone to tell me if my boyfriend was doing that out here. so, i decided to go out on a limb and text her to let her know.
she told me she broke up with him today.
she explained to me that she had caught him cheating back in January when she was here, and she should have broken up with him then, but he had bawled his eyes out and begged her not to. that no one had loved him like she had since his mom passed away. she was hoping that he would change and so she stayed with him. but she couldn't take it anymore, or trust him at all, so she cancelled her flight here and broke it off, even though he begged her to still come. she told me that she was furious with the way  handled things and how hurt she was at what i said to her friend, who shouldnt have been involved in the first place. whether or not Lindsay told her to put her foot in, she did, and it wasn't where it needed to be. someone that has never, will never, meet me, and shouldnt know a damn thing about me had the nerve to not only message me starting crap, but to message Mike's old account when it was active to tell him if she ever meets his wife, she's kicking my ass. it was completely uncalled for and i stand by what i said, that is she was that childish to do such things, she had no right being a mother. so here, Lindsay did all this to herself. as i was sitting here trying to protect her from getting hurt, she already knew that this wasn't serious anymore. that Nick was cheating and lying. she fought with me to tell me that i was wrong, when i was right all along. she herself threw our friendship out the window, it wasn't me at all! though, i really hadn't expected for Nick to be this much of a douche bag, but i knew it would all fall apart either way. and it did, and this is exactly what i was trying to keep her away from. i didn't tell her i was sorry about how i handled things, and i didn't tell her that i was sorry for Ashley, because i'm not, at all. i did say that yes, i was in a tough time in my life and i shouldn't have blown up, and that i was sorry she had to go through what she did. i don't ever expect to be friends with her again, and i'm perfectly fine with that. she isn't needed, if she was really that dumb to know that Parsons want being faithful and yet still tell me she was moving out here and getting married and shit. really? like, come on now, how desperate are you? just pisses me off, completely.
but then again, now i want to kick Parsons in the face even harder for being dumber than i thought. kid, you can't get anyone, and you throw the one person willing to be with you, away. i really think he's just trying to fill the void of his mom being gone, with women. it makes no sense to me. but i am glad Colbert even agreed that he's a weirdo, finally! ahahaha.

sad that i was right and it sucks that someone got hurt in the process, but it serves her right. i'm about 97% right on all things. people really ought to start listening to me!